Its 12:30am Sunday morning and my phone rings:

Me: “hello”?

My friend: “I need you right now”

Me: “Come over, the door is open”

In the past couple of years I have received several of those phone calls. From family, from friends and the occasional DM from a Made with Meg follower. Now… How did I become the go to for these people?

Let’s rewind… It’s January 2021. I am standing alone in my new apartment in Melbourne, Florida. I just left a long term relationship that I thought was going to be my ‘forever’. The very first thing I did was go to the liquor store and buy a bottle of gin. I came home and drank half the bottle. Then I sat there, alone.. drunk.. I was new to Florida and had no family there and only a few newer friends. This was the first time in my life where I was and felt completely alone.

Fast forward a few weeks. I am STRUGGLING, bad. I’ve just been going through the motions for weeks but I’ve never felt this dark in my life. I was laying in bed and I had a decision to make. I get help or I take these bottle of pills and call it a life. My brain was telling me the second option was better because who the fuck cared about me? (Yes, I know how wrong that thought is but hey… that’s depression get off my back).

Since I am here, 3.5 years later, writing this I chose the first option. What little faith I had shown through because I called my brother (god bless him) and I decided to start therapy.

3.5 years later I am here to share this story. I have spoken openly about my struggles for a couple of years now and I will always be open about it because so many of us struggle in silence.

That’s a brief overview of how I became people’s go to, a job I adore and always welcome.

Now why the hell did I just share all of that? Well I have had Made with Meg, my food blog, for about 5 years now. I loved being able to share recipes with you all and hearing all of the wonderful feedback. But for the past year I have been really considering doing more with this page.

I am no medical expert so let me make that very clear. BUT I have experienced what my doctor at the time referred to as, severe depression. I want to use this page to share more about my journey along the years and to let you all know you are not alone. And if anything, I am here for you.

I am not sure what this is going to look like going forward but consider this a soft launch. There’s so much for us to uncover here and I hope to help you all realize that we are all just trying to figure out this game of life together.

Anxiety and depression should never be shamed. Let’s learn together, let’s start the conversation and most importantly LETS BE THE CHANGE.

Here’s to a wonderful blog change!

Much love,

Meg